And a little bit stressed about money. My current job either needs to provide a raise, or full time hours, or I need a new job. All of those options are difficult to ask for. Difficult to talk about even. It's been a very long time since I've had stress about money. I'm not used to it.
It was so eazy working at LP. I didn't have to think particularly hard about things, and I got paid a decent living wage. I wouldn't say I was particularly happy working there, just that it was easy. I could buy what I needed, and I could afford what I wanted.
Now I'm happier. I work in a place where I get to use my brain a little bit more, though it's still not incredibly stimulating. I get to be with my Lady-Friend almost all the time. I live in a decent house that is substance-abuse free. I eat good, fresh, and healthful food. I have access to any amenity that I desire. And yet, because of the pay cuts, I have incredible difficulty paying down my debts, I have to worry about cheques bouncing, and I can't really afford to do anything special for anyone... At least, not in the sense that I'm used to.
I'm complaining unnecessarily here, I know. I have it pretty good. Caring friends and family, Good food, good shelter, employment. I have nothing that I can't handle, I'm just not used to life having challenges.
I think I'm spoiled.
If you don't demand what you need, you won't get it. I'll help as much as I can. <3
ReplyDeleteWell, you definatly got used to a lot more discretionary income then you used to have....I wish my company was looking for an IT person, but they arn't right now... they are still laying people off
ReplyDeleteYeah, I really should market myself a little... and y'know, ask for the things I want.
ReplyDeleteI'm still going to whine about it being difficult though.